Illness (Lavi x sick!Reader)

"I'm breaking up with you." you said without looking into his eyes. You were facing the ground hiding your face behind your hair.
"But why? I thought we were doing better." he asked you whit a sorrowful and hurt voice. It broke your heart to hear him. All you could do was close your eyes and breath in and out before answering his question.
"Because I don't love you, and I'm tired of faking everything." You're such a dirty liar. You loved him more than anything else on the whole world. He was your sun, your moon and your stars. But you couldn’t endure his presence any more. It was too hard for you to see him smile every time you worked or spend time together - time that you didn’t have any more.
"What does that mean?" he asked as he stepped forwards you.
The last time you breathed in and out before opening your eyes again. Slowly you raised your head to face him. His eyes were tear-stained and red. His appearance hurt your heart even more but right now you couldn’t allow emotions to take over.
"I never really loved you.” you spoke out words which you never wanted to say. Not to him. He looked at you shocked don’t knowing what to da. “You believed that I did? You're stupid for even thinking that someone like me could love someone like you."
You liar. You were not worth begin loved. Not you, not right now, never.
"I thought… we could make this work. I love you…" he whispered gently trying his best to not force you.
"No, I'm tired of us. Just leave me alone." you lied shaking your head. Your voice sounded cold like you really never loved Lavi. But it wasn’t true. You loved him so much. "You'll get over it."
"I won't like not being able to hold you… or kiss you." he said.
"I think it's better if we break up. Goodbye, thanks for the fun times." was all you said then you turned him the back and walked outdoors where a carriage already waited for you. All your suitcases were packed and you could leave the Black Order for ever. As you sit down and the carriage moved you couldn’t look back through the window. Tears run down your cheeks and snobs escaped your mouth. And then you started to cry hard. You just ruined your life - your so short life.
But it was better so. Nobody will ever know about your illness. Nobody will cry for you. They can have a normal life. And this was all you wanted. Because of that you broke up with Lavi. You didn’t want to make him cry.

After two months your illness got worse. You could barely breathe and every muscle hurt like hell. As if it wasn’t enough pain your heart was broken in two. You missed all your friends and of course Lavi. The last days were a disaster. The medicine you took made you healthy but you didn’t tolerate it so good. This is why your head ached and you couldn’t eat well.
And then suddenly the door opened. It wasn’t the time for a doctor to come by so you looked up confused. All the time you were alone. Nobody ever came to your room. How should? You left without telling anyone.
“(y/n)?” someone asked entering the room. Tears filled your eyes and you only could shake your head in happiness. There he was. Lavi stand in the door to your room at a hospital. It only could be a dream.
“L-Lavi!” you cried out so happy as never. But then you realized that he found you. He surly knows now about your illness. “P-Please leave!” you begged not wanting him to see your in this state. Lavi should have a happy life and shouldn’t waist time with someone who never could carry a house or simply be like others. Since you were a patient of the hospital your illness got weaker but still you must take medicine every day and often your legs just give up. You never ever could work on as an exorcist.
“(y/n) why have you lied to me?” Lavi ignored you easily and sat down beside your bed. Slowly he took your hand and kissed it. “Was I really so bad to you that you didn’t want to tell me?”
“No, Lavi! It’s not like this. I-I- I just want you to have a normal life.” so you started to tell the true. Everything was said so you haven’t any secrets. He listened attentive your words and didn’t interrupt you till the end. Then he hug you tightly and whispered into your ear a few sweet words that make you even cry harder.
“I only want a live with you by my side. Even if you think it isn’t perfect for me it is. I want make you the happiest person on the whole world. I don’t care about your illness. I love you. So say (y/n), do you love me to?”
“Yes, Lavi, I do!”
From now on you weren’t alone whit your illness. Lavi was by your side helping you in the hard battle to your health.